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Loki in the woods by Gazado Loki in the woods :icongazado:Gazado 1 0
Literature
One Year and Six Months
Jumping through hoops to return to where,
Where things were better, the times you talked without a care.
Please feel the same when this pit can take no more,
If this is real, show me, lead me, I need you to take me,
In this life I feel distanced and strained,
I enter this unknown wondering if you feel the same.
I'm feeling lost but hopeful for what we can be,
To fulfil the potential that we haven't achieved,
During my weariness I gave over to demons inside,
Taking my insecure thoughts, twisting my mind,
I have to trust in the words that you say,
So when you tell me you have forsaken my name,
It hurts inside, this anguish and confusion,
I couldn't let go of this love or  forget you, abandoned.
Shutting me out and cutting me off,
Forgetting the last year and a half in a single stroke,
Throwing away everything that we grew together,
All the love I put into the gifts thrown into the wind and disappeared forever.
Do you regret the loss of those material things,
All the memories th
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Literature
Through to my insides
Now you see what frustrated and tormented me,
the things that hurt, you now understand,
I gave you my everything,
You was supposed to look after it,
Not hand it back in pieces with pin holes in so many places,
Do I tell you,
Do I say,
How you have left me shattered this way.
So you tell me no one could love me as much as you do,
But you won't work together with me to build this back up again,
So much potential,
you say we didn't reach it,
I tried so hard but in the end pushed you away,
Just by my own caring it caused this confusion and anguish.
Do I tell you,
Do I say,
How you have left me shattered this way.
Where have you left the broken parts,
Bruised inside, with this swarm of bee's stinging my eyes,
Do I tell you,
Do I say,
How you have left me shattered this way.
No-one left to pick up these pieces,
Such a cliché metaphor but no other words can describe,
You've stabbed me right through my softest parts,
Visions of running to speed up my depart,
Do I tell you,
Do I say,
How y
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Literature
Outsiders
Hit in the gut with an invisible force all from the mind,
Jumping the hurdles that are thrown in your path,
All while forcing our way to continue living this wretched life.
Sorry but my mind isn't at home right now, come around another day,
Sickness consume the soul and sense doesn't make sense any more,
But we all play a part in this world that's gone topside down,
Awaiting the equilibrium returning from that light at the end,
This tunnel seems so long to the insider,
No-one can see the conflict made within,
All in the name of wanting to be able to feel and see the same as the outsiders.
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Literature
Pendant
Putting in the effort, all this time waiting for this to flow,
Didn't think it'd run out,
Didn't think you'd cry out,
Couldn't predict this ending even if it was on the cards,
Like they say, the writing on the wall, what a figure of speech,
Try to wipe it away,
Wash it away,
Make it fade away,
Make it disappear but it returns with strength,
I break,
You fight,
You deny,
I burn it all out,
While shouting it out,
This rawness left inside.
Denied to last day from the start with a heavy swing,
All through your belief in your predictive pendant.
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Literature
As she passes on
Time is a given when things start to fall,
When you're the only one left who is left there for you to turn too,
So with these fleeting thoughts my message is to say to you,
Take it all into your hearts, your body and soul.
Feel the pain wholly, through into your own downed being,
Don't hold back when the darkness comes to take you away,
It's all a part of humanity never quite knowing when this will be your final day,
You're all a part of what makes it worth to be alive,
So morn for the death of a part of the pieces of the puzzle that went away today,
Acceptance is hard and the loss of one is sometimes too great,
When it affects that segmentation of your soul till it's lost and gone.
But I'm not the only one, it's everyone and happens by the thousand indiscriminately,
So don't push it down, just let it come out until it seems like there is no more,
It'll start again but you'll have learned to move on.
Always in memory, in mind, lasting as a part of you,
Moving to the future without forg
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Literature
Friends, Good Friends
What is there to do,
When your left alone,
When there's no friends or tomorrow left to turn to,
All your plans turn to nothing and the green grass turns to dust,
Three hundred and sixty fuckin' days passed and nothings changed,
What about bridging that gap to make new acquaintances,
When the bridges just crumble to the ground,
When you try but there's still no more tomorrow,
Well you made some idea of a place you wanted to go,
Another day passes but you're no better fuckin' off.
From what I hear you'd keep yourself to yourself,
Not makin' new relations but you'd only complain,
Be lonely while sitting on you're own,
Handful of people that you truly know,
Made up of humanities hypocrisy.
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Literature
Artwork From The Ages
Whilst growing up a picture is painted showing what your life should be,
But it's wrong, or not how you thought things would work out,
Just do what you want, do what you need,
Forget everything else just toss it all away,
Cuz no-one else is living your life
It's all a part of that tapestry.
The sun comes up but it's not a new day,
Only things can change if you fight for it,
Push it all upwards it might take time,
but you'll be fine,
Now you know how to fuck this life,
Slitted eyes make it hard to see,
This is the way,
It's how this picture should be.
You're a fully grown man and that picture was painted as an abstract,
Just start again and search for the answers bleeding,
You always followed your head instead,
Now go with the feelings you found or you're better off dead
Cuz you have to go and live your life
Burn the pain away, that tapestry.
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Literature
Rebirth
I know what you've done
I know whats become
Where it's all from
I've been there before,
All I can do is share my refrain,
the way that I think,
the things chosen to say,
Just take me as I am,
forget your hang ups,
as ages go by,
i am just a man,
after all
We know where we've been,
What's in the past,
we learn from those things,
or we die in a shotgun blast,
of truths.
And it rolls on,
I close my eyes and then think,
like all the other songs,
I wonder why,
Can you show what is really inside,
don't hide,
Or I'll have to meet you again,
in another lifetime.
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Literature
Inconsequence
The you I knew was an imagination,
Something contorted like,
It was all in an outsiders mind.
There was a something beneath the surface,
A sense of crazy rippling beneath the skin.
But it called me in,
Pointed at the wound,
Pulled me in,
Clearing my mind,
Dragging me in,
Suffocating,
This thing couldn't be contained.
Closed the book, the pages torn,
The end of the road,
A new story to be told,
Writing the words and watching them unfold,
Can anyone see what's going on here.
Took me down to your level,
Beat me with experience.
But it called me in,
Pointed at the wound,
Pulled me in,
Clearing my mind,
Dragging me in,
Suffocating,
This thing couldn't be contained.
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Literature
Mechanical Storm
Lightened the load,
The metal has been shed,
The weight has been lifted
My mind is now clear of the lead,
You can melt it all down,
But in this machine,
It's an endless thought,
To rely on myself,
The man I can be,
The fire that returns
It heats up inside,
The acid melts through,
And the belt starts to slip
As the torque punches through,
The steam starts to appear.
But in this machine,
It's an endless thought,
To rely on myself,
The man I can be,
Take all these parts,
Lets re-engineer,
I'll spark the fuel,
To explode violently,
Nothing will remain
In this mechanical body
Is there a soul that remains?
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Literature
Introspective
Disappeared from consequence,
Holding back while inside this shadow,
My feet are heavy
While my head is light,
Why do we bother stepping forward,
When we know we'll be engulfed in this flame of thoughtless desire.
It's pulling on me, weighing me down,
You know when you're alone,
I need you to reassure that things will be ok,
Letting each other go,
moving on
Letting this all alone.

Feel my soul taken out,
a drop at a time as if it's liquefied.
Then the stranger looked upon us,
Trying to find out if,
this little piece of... nothing
was actually something worthy of his time.
It's pulling on me, weighing me down,
You know when you're alone,
I need you to reassure that things will be ok,
Letting each other go,
moving on
Letting this all alone.
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Literature
Changing Face
Meet someone new,
How things change,
Do you know what to do,
I just don't know.
Feelings say one thing,
You say another,
How do you move,
On,
I don't know where to go with this,
Do you?
Help me,
Move on,
Into the future,
Without being alone,
I'll take on all of your problems,
In a heart beat,
Do you realise,
What you meant to me in the past,
I don't know,
What to do,
Come help me, or let me go.
I need to be free,
From this feeling,
Insecurity,
See you in the next life time,
Do you want to see me again?
I don't know what to do,
Confusion,
It works its way,
Into,
Me.
Scream it all out of your soul,
Fight your way through,
The blackness as it mounts up,
I just hope you see,
What you did to me.
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Literature
Onto your End
Kill the pain
With alcohol,
Does it make any sense,
I dont think so,
But do you know,
The video, the vhs, has you're soul
Trapped,
Watch it back over and over again
In your mind,
Rememberin'' what you did
Do you see how you fucking killed this,
So much anger for such a little time.
Well lets see where this ends,
Wanna see where I end?
Well you'll take my soul and make it bend.
I'm not one of you're followers
I have a mind of my own,
I won't chase after you,
Crouched on my knees,
Stronger than you would ever imagine.
Let me go,
Let me free,
Just let me get on and be,
With me as a weight,
On your neck ,
So you realise I'm broken away.
Do you see the chorus in this,
You're the one who makes me to be,
Broken,
The one who is sore and I don't,
Know,
Anymore.
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Literature
Crimson Shimmering
Bring
the struggle
to
the
surface
Burn me to ashes,
Set it alight,
Take this loneliness and throw it all away,
Rip this empty gut out,
Burn me to ashes,
Dust is all that remains,
Burn me to ashes,
All is what's set free,
Burn me to ashes,
Set this fire alight
Burn this hollow to dust.
What takes it all away,
The hate comes again,
I could not go on in this charade of a pitiful being.
One phrase to blow this apart,
I may be to blame in some alternate reality,
In your own landscape etched within,
You are dead and cold.
Through and through, inside out.
Decrepit heart, jealous of the other,
you couldn't keep your mouth shut.
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The Unknowing Form
Hear the scratching of the insects,
ripping through your sense of mind,
Knowing what has become,
Falling all alone,
watching as they run away,
the little ones.
I am broken,
In this blackened shell,
Please just leave me now,
Turn your back and leave
Don't look around,
I'm split in two,
Just as you well know.

Smell the decay from the Earth,
Bleeding from your tired eyes,
Non-believer in what I've done,
Needles in your throat,
I can't keep up in this world,
It's all too much.
I am broken,
In this blackened shell,
Please just leave me now,
Turn your back and leave
Don't look around,
I'm split in two,
Just as you well know.

See the ripples of infected disease,
Metal burns against your skin,
I can't feel now you are gone,
How do you go on,
Imagine you walked into the sun,
You never looked back,
I am broken,
In this blackened shell,
Please just leave me now,
Turn your back and leave
Don't look around,
I'm split in two,
Just as you well know.

The end is near in your darkne
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Finality
Rest your gaze upon me
Smile, if you will
One look could save, the other might just kill
Fill your eyes with the poison of your choice
Grace these shattered eardrums with the sweetness of your voice
Or use the words to cut
Whichever one you choose, it's sure to be enough
Snuff me out or feed the fire
I'm dieing either way, choking on desires
Rain falls on my parade
A life like a presidential motorcade
Made to live in constant fear
Am I headed for disaster, or am I finally in the clear?
Steer me towards the end
I can't keep up any longer
No more will I defend
Rest your gaze upon me
Smile, if you will
One look could save, the other might just kill
Fill your eyes with the poison of your choice
Grace these shattered eardrums with the sweetness of your voice
Or use the words to cut
Whichever one you choose, it's sure to be enough
Snuff me out or feed the fire
I'm dieing either way, choking on desires
I'm begging to get out
Somebody tell me now
Is this my final bout
Shout it over the storm,
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A bit of background, I tend to write things, songs, poems or whatever you like to call them, whenever I'm in times of heightened emotion and once again I find myself in that frame of mind.

So I'm probably going to go through a spout of posting things up and tidying up the things I already have on here.
  • Listening to: Godsmack's first album - takes me back
  • Drinking: Green tea

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Gazado

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MP3 player of choice: Windows Media Player
Shell of choice: Good old MS Explorer
Wallpaper of choice: Changes too much to say
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Favourite cartoon character: Naruto - but he is from an Anime, not a cartoon
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dandy-cARTastrophe Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for faving! :aww:
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Khrys90 Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank for the FAV!:-)
Please, visit my gallery -> khrys90.deviantart.com/gallery...

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bribesdemoi Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013
thanks for the :+fav: !
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Ms--Usagi Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you for the fav :D
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LexisArt Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the fav :la:
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RainbowCosmetics Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2012  Student General Artist
Hello! How are you? Just thought i'd drop in and say hi :)
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RainbowCosmetics Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2012  Student General Artist
Hey Gaz, long time no speak :) It's Lily by the way, if you remember me lol
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Gazado Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Yes, of course I remember you silly. How's life going for you now? Been almost two years. Had any luck in the relationship front? I know you had problems back then so just want to know if you are ok really.
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RainbowCosmetics Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2012  Student General Artist
That long? Time has gone quick... I'm a lot better now, had a couple of bad turns but it's all good. Got a boyfriend who i've been with for over a year now. What about you? How have you been?
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